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Day 187 ~ Rejuvination
|Took my camera for a walk this evening. It's a poor substitute for a dog, but since Mia is on hiatus from walks until at least Wednesday, the D3 filled the temporary role nicely... and without any messes to clean up.
Across the street from the otherwise suburban neighborhood I live in is some farm land... a refreshing holdout of nostalgia in an ocean of urban development. I hope the owners of these two plots of land never sell, at least while we live hear because 1) it's a welcome reminder of my childhood days out in the country back in Ohio, and 2) it doesn't have the typical "fresh air" smell of most farms.
A couple images from our walk near sun down...
Day 186 ~ An Admission of Guilt
|I've been unfaithful recently, and I feel the need to publicly apologize, so here goes...
I'm sorry. I know you feel abandoned and neglected right now, and you have every right to do so. I've failed to spend any quality time with you in the last week, all the while I've been out looking at - and sometimes even coveting - other blogs. You must feel betrayed, but I can explain...
I promise I didn't do anything inappropriate with those other blogs. Well, I did leave a couple comments on them, but they were harmless comments, and nothing about you and I... promise. And if it makes you feel any better, I've been neglecting Facebook, too. And Twitter? I can't even find him anymore. I'm not sure why I ever got involved with Twitter because if anybody should feel abandoned, it's him. I haven't talked to him in over a month. I'm deflecting now. Sorry.
In trying to reflect on why I felt I needed some distance from you, I've come to the conclusion that it's not me, it's you. I feel like you're often selfish, always wanting my spare time all to yourself and making me feel guilty when ever I'm not spending every free moment with you. You and your "what have you posted for me lately?" attitude always make me feel like I'm not doing enough. Yes, I realize my Project 365 is looking more like Project 218 lately. I'm on the hook for that, although, in my defense, it is 100+ degrees more days than not in Texas right now which means I don't even want to go outside let alone take any clients out there for a session. It's officially my "off-season", but that's a marginal excuse at best.
Long story short, as painful as it may be to hear, the time away from you has been good for me. I've been getting more things done around the house, sleeping a little more, and my eyes haven't been as dry and irritated lately. Still, I missed you. And if you'll have me back, I'd like to hang out again. Maybe not every day - I still need my space from time to time - but often.
To celebrate our reunion, here's some fireworks from the 4th of July that represent our relationship on the good days in the past. Let's rekindle.